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Sunday, May 30, 2004

yesterday we went for trng! we ran 4x100m! my team had candice, parneet, vania and me! haha it was really fun, we ran twice and both times we got second. sabbys team got first twice. hmph! and then, the first time we ran, stumpys team was on the wrong lane, and so they didnt run! heyy its not fair ok!
after trng we went out! we went to the psl carn...wasnt very fun really, but we only went to the haunted house. stumpy screamed her way through the whole thing....haha it was really funny to hear her scream! and then we went town...throughout the journey stumpy and her dear candice were bickering like anything! haiyoh! pointless arguments! urgh! and then we went to cine and haha we took neoprints there, and went for dinner at crepes and cream. oh yes, i had a baloon and i tied it to wanyis bag. stumpy was nagging at me for that! she said i was horrible!!! how cld she! hmph! but i took it off in the end la...however stumpy still refused to believe that i am not a horrible person! so bad!
after that we went for chinese drama. haha it was really funny too. on the bus stumpy and candice started quarrelling again. haiz...when will they stop! i tried to ignore them, but then they thought i was angry at them! oh well...i really dont know what to do la! hahaha! theyre just so so so so amusing! and chinese drama was kind of bad...last years one was much much better! even pple from outside say so! haiz...maybe next year it will be better...

4:43 PM
Friday, May 28, 2004

How evil are you?

6:43 PM
Thursday, May 27, 2004

heyy! so long since i last blogged! was very caught up these few days. it was the last few days of sch.

24th May
i had my lit test today. it was terrible! haha i wrote 3 pages of crap. dunno how im going to do well for this test.
after the test, i decided to go for the banner painting since i cldnt make it in time for hpps anyway. i got some paint on my pinafore, but it was quite fun la! oh and i think the banner is kind of plain! haiz...colours so dull one! i want orange and lilac! haiz but the design is ok la...fine...
then i decided i shld go fro talentime after all. so i was calling up all my seniors to ask them if they had any extra tickets. ethel had a ticket initially, but she sold it to someone else! hmph! but in the end i decided i shld go look for stumpy and lulu at mos anyway (oh and emily too, but thats not impt la). we sat down there watching stumpy do her work. then lulu and emily went to buy something, so i was left with stumpy. i tried talking to her but it didnt work cos she was sp engrossed in her work. such a mugger! then, christine and vania came along. i offered to treat christine to talentime, but then she wldnt believe me that i was so nice. hmph! then so be it la!
we ate dinner at coffee bin, where i met natty. haha she was with her friends. they wanted to watch troy, but then the timings were inappropriate. haha funny mortal! i wanted to treat her to a cookie, but then she didnt accept. i had already bought the cookie, so as i was trying to persuade her, emily snatched it away and said that she wanted it. hmph! evil emily!!
we went back to sch by bus. it was a terribly bupy ride, and that clumsy stumpy kept losing her balance. haha it was so funny! when we reached sch, i was relieved to find out that sabby got for me the ticket already. haha...thanks sabby!
talentime! it was quite alright la...just that not everyone was very good, and sabby was complaining that she paid twelve bucks for this thing. and then we realized that stumpy didnt clap along with the rythem, she was one of the few. so sabby and i were laughing abt how she doesnt have a sense of beat. haha! i think thats quite true la! we wanted to scream for candice when she finished, but then that stumpy, once again, stubbornly refused to scream! haha i bet candice was heartbroken! anyway, they won their category (others). and then we went out to take photos. we made candice kneel down and propose to stumpy so that we can take a pisture of that. hahaha!! we all had a good laugh abt it!
i got home really late...haiz...so tired!

25 May
hmm...today we had trng. it was quite little actually, but somehow it felt tiring. i think its because of the long sprints...they were exhausting. well basically we were just all so tired.
(i think thats all i can rmb)

26 May
yupp! the last day of sch! yay haha! i was so happy!
we went to candices house for the sleepover.
first candice, emily, lulu and i went to candices house to put our stuff down. we sat around a bit, and then went for lunch. we decided on wheelock place cos it was a nice place! haha and then we met stumpy, sing yean, sabby, janessa and wanyi there. there were little to do la...and we just bummed around! hahaha! and then stumpy and lulu went off for the in conversation thing, and wanyi, janessa and sabby went off to candices house to change. we just walked around and spent the rest of the time in the arcade.
at around 8:30, the rest of them came. we ate dinner at subway (the place ive gotten sick of since the trip to vancouver), and bought movie tickets for confessions of a teenage drama. it was a weird movie, it seemed really old for one, and so i didnt like it very much. since there was nothing much left to do in cine, we went back to candices house.
haha...we spent almost the whole night watching movies. they wanted to watch some gory thing at first, but some pple didnt want to. so in the end we watched bring it on 2 and along came polly. i didnt get to finish watching it before i fell asleep. but yeah...we had a lot a lot of fun...

27 May
i woke up really early today at 10 (considering the fact that i slept at 3:30 last night, and i woke once at 8). we ate breakfast and just walked around candices house. its really big lo...and sabby went back trying to sleep. haha...being such evil pple, we (candice, wanyi, emily and i) took her by her arms and legs and dragged her out of the room, thereafter dunking her into the pool. hehe...she was really mad and all...and then i pushed emily in as well, after that candice pushed me and wanyi in. ok we got really wet, and stumpy and lulu were just laughing away at us! heyy this isnt fair ok! we had to bathe again!
i saw our article! it was published in the home section! hahaha! it was written so humourously! and nicoles and sams names were mentioned...haha funny! the bollywood pple said they were looking for us now to give us the free movie passes. haha, i bet they werent for real! but anyway we got our free movie tickets la...haha!
then, after lunch, we went for trng. ms zhang didnt come today cos she had something on. we did weights and running. it was bad. hahaha! and i dropped the 20kg weights on my foot twice. i think i am becoming really clumsy amd silly, like that certain someone la, so clumsy until can drop the pencil lead inside the toe one. hehe...and then i just took a cab home cos my toe hurt.

there, a complete (almost) account of the past few days!

8:35 PM
Sunday, May 23, 2004

hahah went for another movie today. troy. it was really nice and all, except that some parts were kind of sick. its not fair! everyone died except that paris guy! all the nice pple die, and the show is really weird cos theres one protaganist on each side of the war, and so you dont know who to support! but anyway, it was a nice show.
when we went inside the cinema, there were these bollywood stars. their security guards made us exchange seats with them so that they can get better seats. in the end we went to the second row, and it was really horrible cos we had to strain our necks to watch the show, which apparently lasted for like 3 hours. we only agreed to that cos they agreed to give us free tickets to other movies. but then after the show they simply walked off without eve bothering to find us so that they can fulfil their promise. huh! so we went to the ticket counter and asked the manager abt it. he said that those pple werent his pple, and they did not inform him abt this. he kept saying that those bollywood pple were too much. but in the end he gave us the four free tickets, stressing that these ticket came from them and not those horrible bollywood pple. haha...such a funny manager! but he was nice alright la...

then after the movie we went to eat ice-cream at haagen-diaz...was nice la but we were laughing a lot, so much that some pple were spitting the water out of their mouthes (hint hint). haha...then we just went home.

ok now yesterday.
we had the selections. the results wasnt very satisfying, some were kind of upset and all, but well its over anyway, so theres nothing we can do abt it. heyy pple, no matter what, we are still part of the team ok? we will still work together towards the success of the team yeah?
after trng we went for jumpers lunch. macs, and linxi sat next to me again, but luckily this time she didnt do anything disgusting to me. actually i wasnt sitting next to her in the first place, but then ethel ditched xiaohui and so i had to sit in her place. haha but it was fine la...
then emily, ethel, wanyi, linxi, sabby and i went for the movie, we watched shrek 2. candice was supposed to come, but then she was on her way to town so she came late, catching only around 8 mins of the entire show. so she was complaining abt how each min of the show cost her one buck. haha...who ask her go town!
after that, we walked around a little, then we headed home.

haiz...got tkmb test tmr, summative essay some more! i am dead lo...and i still havent finished reading emily of emerald hill, then deborah tan coming to class tmr...how much worse can this get?

7:57 PM
Saturday, May 22, 2004

todays trng was a sad one. dont wanna talk abt it.

after trng we went to watch shrek 2!! haha it was really funny! actually i feel guilty for spending so much money...i am watching tryo tmr...haiz...will blog tmr la...

7:54 PM
Friday, May 21, 2004

just returned from third lang. thought i would be getting back my marks, but apparently that teacher doesnt know my marks. haha...guess i will just have to wait for my report book!

oh and i forgot to blog abt ai! how cld they eliminate jasmine! its not fair! shes so pretty so cute so nice so sweet so good so chio so so so so deserving!! why did they kick her out! hmph! im not going to watch ai ever again! its no more fun anyway!

6:44 PM

haha...we had trng yesterday, selections, to be precise. it was fine, i didnt jump too well, but yeah, i got in. wanyi jumped 9.10, that zai sec 1...haha...oh man...but they wanted re-selections on sat...ahh! why again...haha...so weird...but ms zhang said i might be doing long...oh man so much pressure! oh well...just have to get the hold of it!

i went to the clinic yesterday. got myself a mc and so today i didnt go sch. haha...missed the lit test. i think i will take it on mon or tue next week. we, if i feel well enough later on, i will go for third lang. haha...maybe i will get back my marks today.

haiyoh, one of the only chances for me to blog all day, yet ive got nothing to crap abt, hahahaha!

9:50 AM
Wednesday, May 19, 2004

haha havent been blogging...was really tired cos many things happened la...aiyah nvm la...

third lang was dumb today. we did some retarded grp work. haha...we just slacked around cos it was really warm and humid, and that made us very, very sleepy. but other than that we did nothing much. blah, we didnt even get back our marks! its not fair, the french pple got theirs back already! i want my marks! i wont necessarily be too happy seeing them, but thats not the pt! i just want my marks! poo!

oh i had my physics newtons three laws of motion test today. it was terrible. the last two questions seemed to lead to the same answer. haha i dont know...that was the worst test ive ever done for physics! oh blah, still got lit on fri. dont wanna do! i got so low for the open-book one already! then the close-book one i sure die lo! haiyoh! and tmr got selections some more! why so many things this week! haha...really very crammed up leh...

hmm...i think ive caught a cold. got sore throat and cough. dont know tmr can train or not. oh dear! but tmr is the selections! haha...i am so lucky la! got cold still must go selections...and my thighs are atill aching from tues workout. haiz...

heyy! but i got the new note! the plastic one! its so pretty! yay!

(i sound a bit mad today, dont i?)
(or have i always been like this?)

6:14 PM
Sunday, May 16, 2004

i cut my hair today!!! yay! it wasnt a very major diff, but i simply shortened it a bit. haha...wanted to go town to cut it, but i was too lazy and so i went imm. i ate my dinner there as well...and now im back here doing work! hehe...havent done much the past few days.

die! tmr got gong han test! how! i got medical appt! uh oh...shld have told mdm loy earlier...if she gets angry with me then i cannot take the test! ahh!!! what to do! maybe i shld call her. she gave me her number the last time. ahh!! panic!

7:35 PM
Saturday, May 15, 2004

trng today was quite fun. we jumped and measured our distances. i aparrently was a little good as quoted by ms zhang. haha...at least i improved...but ms zhang said we will have selections on thurs. i dont want! why selections! if i screw up on that day then its bye bye for me! heyy...i really dont want to do this lo...it will be so horrible if i screw up...haiz...why cant she just put us in on her own! i mean, as a coach im sure she knows us well enough right! why must have selections! going to stress us up! and on fri i got close book tkmb test you know! got no time to study if on that day...haiz...its a total disaster...
ok anyway we jumpers went out for lunch at macs. guess what linxi did to me? she burped right into my face and i could smell te coke and fries! oh man! it was so utterly sick lo! then after that i went to the washroom to clean up...oh gosh...
so after that we went town. nothing much...we took neoprints and then went home.

i just got my bill for my dial-up plan. guess how much it is? $180+. haha...my mum is so going to kill me when she finds out lo...must be a good girl these few days...haha...oh im just so dead la! i must not come online so often anymore! oh dear...

5:07 PM
Friday, May 14, 2004

today had trng with the c div. it felt good and i managed to finish the whole thing. haha...i didnt slack! but because of tat i am feeling really tired lo...ahh need to sleep early today.

third lang was bad! we watched this jap love movie, and i slept a bit. i was smsing lulu and xiaohui and juju so that i wont die of boredom. haha...am really sick of those things lo...i dont even understand for one, and two i was just way too sleepy to concentrate la!

haha todays entry is really short. got nothing much to write la! haha...

9:40 PM
Thursday, May 13, 2004

we had the mock trial today. it was really funny...shirley tan came down to watch us...and i kind of freaked out cos i was supposed to be nathan radley and had to speak in front of her. it went fine...but kylie was pressing me all along and she refused to listen to my reply or allow me to clarify. heyy, its not fair ok! in the end i was the only defendant to get convicted! haha ok la...it wasnt that bad...at least we had fun!

then after that we went to watch the chinese drama thing. was really lame and all lo...and that guy made us all roses...he said that every rose was different, and he made a few pple stand up to show their different characteristics. oh right, he made me stand up, pointed to mt specs and said that i was a rose wearing a protective mask. i see no relation in this.

then after that several things happened when i met emily. and then i went home.

8:08 PM
Wednesday, May 12, 2004

ahh...it feels so good to be home so early! normally i reach home at around 8+, and today i got home at 4:30! haha im glad thers no third lang until friday! mm...tghen i no need to stay on until so late to blog!

i had nothing on today so actually i could have gone home right after sch. but then i decided to stay back and do something with emily. haha...and so i stayed until 3...we went to xiaohuis classroom and bummed around. emily and i began drawing on their blackboard. we drew xiaohui, lulu and their prefect friend (i forgot her name, but i think its deanna yeo). haha it was really funny! emily thought that stumpy reminded her of trees, and so she drew a stumpy tree, and then i drew deanna, she was a tree wearing a tie and a prefect badge, and emily drew lulu as a tall tall tree. ok it was all really lame, but we had funnnn! and then later i went to look at their seating plan. i saw that shumins sis was in that class, and then when i was trying to see where exactly does she sit, xiaohui pointed out to me that charmaine was sitting right there in class! it was so embarrassing (yeah and as anticipated xiaohui was laughing her trademark laugh)! ahh i didnt know ok! if only i had more time to figure it out, then perhaps i would have seen!

yesterday we had cle. we discussed abt the pros and cons of rp. everything we came up with were cons. we kind of scared our teacher cos we said that rp was so stressful that we comtemplate suicide everyday! haha of course its not true la...but our teacher was so convinced we were feeling sorry for her. and then we did a survey on the no. of hours of sleep we get a day. the majority, including me, sleeps around 5 hours a day. and i found out that alicia gets 8 hours of sleep a day! its not fair!

tmr got art! i still havent finished my disgusting piece of drawing of ugly insects! shld i finish it? its so useless! i dont like studying at ugly insects and trying to draw them out. and the things i draw dont even look like insects. im just a hopeless nut at art!

haiyah im just very bored now. i can finally sleep early today!

4:52 PM
Tuesday, May 11, 2004

im just very bored today. yesterday i stayed on until 12+ to finish my math challenge thing, as well as the history debate speech. there seems to be something to worry abt every single day, and its all because of rp. i dont know why they refused to let us take the o levels, seriously i would much prefer taking them lo...at least i know what im studying for. with rp, everything seems so far away. we are going to go for a major cambridge exam without prior experience of the o levels - its straight on to the a levels. but then again, its a bit too late to think abt all these now, isnt it? not like i can do anything abt it except to accept and live with it...

had my chinese test today. wasnt too good. audrye wasnt too happy with hers either. i just thought that i might not even hit 80. man if that happens i will probably go nuts (no as in seriously). i spent my whole night doing stuff which i thought were due today, but instead they got postponed, like the history debate for example. and so as a result i didnt study chinese AT ALL. so smart right? i just totally regret it now. i want to swear but i shldnt. ahh!!! this is so annoying!!!

9:27 PM

Obsessive Compulsive

eh...yeah right. im sure...

8:47 PM
Monday, May 10, 2004

Raffles Girls' School

eh...like emily, im so fated to be here.

7:39 PM

What Irrational Number Are You?

You are φ

Of all the irrational numbers, you are considered to be the most beautiful. Those who know you well have called you by many names, all golden. However, most people don't know you by name and probably won't even recognize you by sight, but they do like to see you. Despite your pretty face, you are by no means shallow. You are involved it many things: finance, biology, architecture, art, music, and much more.

In some ways you and e are a nearly perfect match. The power and intensity of e excites you.

Your lucky number is approximately 1.61803399

Shiny Lemur

Straif's Blog

haha this is funny! but comes to think of it, i do have a lot of names, dont i?

7:37 PM
Sunday, May 09, 2004

ora today.

went for the walk. then watched a bit of the performances, and went to the haunted house. did some australian math stuff. am having difficulty doing the tessellation question.

i am so tired.

8:37 PM
Saturday, May 08, 2004

went for trng today. was feeling really lethargic and so i did badly for the jumps. my life is going down the drain. track is fun but depressing as well. im scared one day i will just fall. then it will be too late, wldnt it? id like to change it now so as to prevent any unnecessary disasters. i dont know.

anyway, after trng we went for lunch and then watched van helsing. it was a nice show, but a bit gory. it was kind of scary and all, and ethel and lulu were screaming their lungs out (ok fine i was too). haha...and it was really very cold inside!! i was hugging my legs in the cinema cos i really cldnt stand it. but the show was nice, a pity kate had to die in the end. shes very pretty...ethel said she was one the worlds beautifullest women. haha...ethels so funny!! oh and the other day she tried to cheat me on msn! she said she wasnt ethel after ive talking to her for a looong time, then i freaked out and started panicking. after a while she began laughing madly away at the other side. hmph! evil senior!

haiyah. i shld just go now. i need to sort out my thoughts. i need to priortize my stuff before i go mad. yupp, must give up on some stuff, then concentrate on the others.

7:02 PM
Thursday, May 06, 2004

im so glad that i didnt have to wake up early today. ha! did some mugging in the morning (for around two and a half hours!), then set off to J8 to meet juju and company. when i got there, there were alicia, juju, yu leng, shuning, ruiyi and i think shumin. yupp, so they were threatening to go when i was eating (so mean!), and i waved madly around to make sure they didnt do just that. anyway they waited for me la...and we went off together to moelc. on the way juju told me how alicia, shumin and she were singing im not crazy in mos. and then ruiyi was saying to herself im studying, im studying, oh yeah im studying very self-reprimandingly. i can just imagine her doing that, its so funny lo!
and then we met sharon and the others in moelc. they were all mugging too, and sharon and i didnt exactly study a lot compared to the others, so we got down to last minute cramming. when i was chanting out to myself the vocab list, sharon just came around and plopped herself down on me! you know how skinny she is! it was really painful ok! and she like sat there for 10 whole minutes. im just happy that i can still walk after she got up la...its a blessing i must say. so later we went to our respective exams rooms. i was feeling sleepy lo...even though i like woke up at 9 this morning, but last night i was chatting with emily until 12:30 or something like that. haiz...she must have felt worse lo...cos she needs to wake up early. anyway, when i saw the test paper, i almost fainted. there were four sets of stuff, and we had like two hours and fifteen minutes. i was so scared that i will fall asleep during the paper lo...luckily i didnt. most of the questions were ok, except that my lethargic mind simply wont function properly. i kept drifting off, thinking of weird and impossible stuff that are in no way related to anything in particular. so anyway, the sakubun (compo), it was quite fun, i had a lot of things to write abt, but im pretty sure my sentence structures were all faulty. but nvm, its over anyway. the listening was relatively easy, compared to past years. it was exceptionally clear this time round. yupp, so basically it went fine.

after third lang exam i wanted to go see my cca train in ri. but then juju claimed that she had been waiting for me for a loooong time. she wanted me to go home with her. well i decided to sms emily and ask her if i shld go, but she apparently didnt reply me. so i cant say no to juju right? we met sharon at J8 and ate there. they ate udon and me chicken rice (again, that was what i ate for lunch). i didnt want to eat udon because one, it was too expensive and two, it reminded me so much of my jap mid-year exam that i had just screwed.

oh ok nvm, i think today was quite fine. but i need some rest now...tmr got geog test and tingxie. oh well...

8:53 PM
Wednesday, May 05, 2004

this morning i managed to spot xiaohui. actually i would have missed her again if i didnt just happen to look up. haha...but i did and yeah so i won! she said i wont see her again, but i did! so trala!!

physics was interesting today. we were talking abt moments and mrs quah made slam demostrate it by slamming a door. such a coincidence isnt it? -slam produced a moment the moment she slammed the door- as quoted from sharon. but i bet slam was very glad that she got selected, cos its her favourite past time anyway. just look at that grin she had on her face when she slammed the door shut (producing a moment). then we went back to class. mrs quah made sam cheok stand in front of the class and showed us where her center of gravity was. she pasted masking tape on her pinafore and made her rock back and forth like humpty dumpty. yupp, so then she got yet another person to show that with the cg directly above the pivot, it is not easy to keep balance. chris-tin tried to pick up the duster from the floor, while keeping her entire leg against the wall. she didnt exactly succeed lah...and then me the extra had to comment that it shldnt be as hard as it seems. well the result of this was pretty obvious, i soon had the whole class prompting me to go and try. bleargh, it was really stupid cos i like almost fell over. we werent supposed to support our weight on the floor you see, but then i cheated a bit by supporting my weight on the duster instead (oops!!). so in the end i managed to do so. and as mrs quah had said, she owes me an ice-cream. i happily went back to my seat, only to be called back again to stand on the teachers table to demostrate the whole thing again. she pasted masking tape on me, then made me do a lot of funny things. it was really embarrassing loh...and then later sharon took the masking tape from me and pasted it on herself, for the entire last block. shes a bit the bored only lah!

then after school we went for public speaking. i wasnt nervous and so i guess it went fine for me. nicole seemed a bit nervous cos there were a lot of impromptu changes, but yeah, like always, she did a good job. we did better than the other day, so thats that! but we didnt manage to get into the finals, 211 and 212 got in. they were good lah, but their proposal are kind of similar. but anyway, mrs yap came and talked to us, she was trying to console us and all. some of my group members were crying, soe were tearing, while others were just laughing and babbling away to prevent themselves from breaking down. i cldnt say any nice things to them then cos i wasnt feeling too good either. well we have come this far, only to be eliminated at the last minute. somehow i felt if they had just decided upon the winners the other day, it would have been better. they gave us hope of winning, then took it away before we cld have done anything with it. haiz...but nvm, im sure thers a next time! and to my wonderful group members: you all were really good! thaks to all those who spent so much effort on the proposal, the ppt, and the ads. although we didnt use daffys flash tv ad, it was very well done and you ought to be recognized for your tremendous effort. and nicole, if not for your quick-wittedness, we would have died for the q&a section. yupp, although we didnt make it to the finals, we did well and we shld be proud of our entire group! yay!! ok i sound weird saying this dont i? i dont usually show this kind of feelings but i just have to this time!! heyy! we deserve it fair and square!
yupp so then mrs yap invited us to a treat. but then most pple had to go, and i was the only one free. so in the end i decided not to go either, and instead went to orchard with sharon. we sat down at the mcdonalds at wisma and mugged for jap (ok maybe not MUG but we did study ok! w studied a little of the grammar, the vocab, talked a bit, laughed a lot, yeah you kind of get the idea dont you?). then we took the train home.

8:04 PM
Monday, May 03, 2004

and today.

in the morning i got lulu to lend me her geog notes. mugged for like half an hour and then went for assembly. they were sypposed to announce the results for caltex today, but somehow they didnt. and so they said it was postponed to fri. oh well i can wait. it has got nothing to do with me anyway. and then over the pa system we heard the head prefects voice announcing the classes selected for public speaking. my class was screaming cos they were happy we made it this far. haha...but it seemed a bit rowdy cos we were in the foyer.
then we went for class. mrs joyce yap took our recess to talk to us abt public speaking. we saw the rubrics and then it came to out realization that we had scored the highest marks. im very proud of myself cos we got 28/30 for presentation, the strongest pt in our entire project.
and the geog, i was so angry to find out that the test was postponed. made me worry for nothing. haiz...and me have short term memory, therefore i think i would have forgotten whatever i managed to cram into my head by fri. then i will fail...oh well...

sl was not fun today. i had to teach four naughty boys instead of andriana and denise. the boys were really noisy, they burst my eardrums. and i stared at them like dont know what. ahh, it was just all very messed up. after that, i went for third lang. todays lesson was rather light and interesting. and then i went home. so here i am, doing my speech. got to present this on wed, must do a good job!! haha...this is fun.

haizâ€¦must go do my work now. if i delay any longer i will end up getting nothing done at all. yupp!!

8:55 PM

haha...havent blogged for a few days. first start with yesterday.

i rmb spending one whole day at home bored and nothing to do. then i went to yings house and stayed there for a little while, did some hw and went back home. i was just really passive the whole of yesterday. nothing seemed to be able to arouse my interest. i just rmb staring at the sky a lot (i must have looked very blur). and then at night i made lulu call me to teach me geog in preparation for the geog test the next day. but somehow we ended talking rubbish. ha, i must have wasted a lot of her time. but anyway it was so rubbish that now as i think of it nothing seemed to make out. its just all nonsense, as she had been trying to tell me. haiz...we talked for like three hours, and then i slept at around twelve thirty.

8:50 PM
Saturday, May 01, 2004

yupp. just got home from dinner. my dad says i have to go in june, which means that i will have to miss two weeks of trng. sigh...then i will die for nats loh...and i talked to ms zhang over the phone over this, she agreed lah, but i can se that she wasnt too happy abt it. i wonder if she felt really disappointed. i dont want to go...but i guess its just inevitable. sigh...im so sad. why must i go? cannot even go track camp already...i so badly wanted to go ok! and now i guess i will just have to spend my holidays i some ulu-ulu place ive never been to before. so sian.

i really want to stay. really.

9:28 PM